{♥} - Maybe One Day,You'll Know .

2010-06-25T04:43:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is birthday , I feel upset more instead of excited . It's my birthday in the few hours time . But I still don't feel like it . I just hope you'll be like the past , because you do changed alot compared to the past .

Anyway , I'm so glad later will be the last last sessions of my PTO . Gonna miss all my fellow probationers ! Hope all of us here would remember what we had actually learnt and through together from the beginning till now :) together-NESS ! Haha , this words may not exist but they're created and often used by us :) take care all , hope we'll still keep in contact guys !:))

Omg , I wanna EXTEND MY HAIR !!!!!!!!!

2010-06-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY - FRIDAY = PTO
MONDAY , SATURDAY & SUNDAY = WORK .
SIBEI CHUAN !
NO OFF DAY WANT UHS ?!
CCB , GAO LAT !

2010-06-04T09:37:00.001+08:00

跟你说我的感受了之后，我也舒服多了。。你不要问我为什么，因为爱你就是我的理由。。我爱你

哭過就好了
This morning , I cried . You hugged and kissed me . You apologised to me , you beg for forgiveness . This morning , When i was sleeping . Out of sudden , You hold my hand . My heart melt after that . I cried without your notice . I have been thinking the whole night , Should we just end this . Cause it's miserable for me . I wanted to tell you , But i don't have the guts to say it infront of you . What you told me this morning , Hope what you had said are all truth and bottom from your heart . You told me you love no one but only me , I'm the only person who stands a position in your heart , You said i think too much . Maybe i have really been thinking tooo much recently . Lucky you sayang and pamper me , if not i may just leave you all alone in the house . I cried till my eyes both are swollen and another side infection . Baby still can say me ORBI , Who ask me you wan cry . Say me like ah hai and say i like a DOG ! WTF -.- Hahaha ! This is how we communicate la .. I'm not feeling welll ~~ Should i go work today ? Alamark , Sleepy ! Not having enough sleep lately . Sian .

I MISS AH HAI BABY ! Hahaha , Tonight AH HAI BABY is going to Jiadoh at my house downstairs de xin tua (: Heeeeex ! Can go spotcheck him ...
Love You ~ And you better MAI GAI LIM BEI HONG (: Muacks !

2010-06-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm unhappy , I'm upset .
I'm feeling Paranoid .
I'm too over-sensitive .
I get Jealous easily .
But whatever i'm doing is because ,
I Love you .
I'm afraid you would Lie to me .
I hate liars .
If you're really gonna lie to me .
i'm afraid i will never forgive you .
Sometimes ,
I felt that i cant even compared to your ex-gf .
Not even your FRIENDS .
I'm like the one giving ,
You're the one taking .
Please be fair to me .
I need your attention too ,
I need your care too .
I need to be treated more of your care and Love than ANYONE else .
I'm vexed .
But did you ever really come and understand me more ?
Ask me what i'm really thinking actually ?
Have you spare a thought for me ?
I feel like dying .
I wanna end this soon .
Even though i seems to be very cheerful everytime you saw me .
But deep inside me ,
No .Absoblute ly NOT .
You had never try to understand me before .
And this ,
Makes me think i'm more like your normal friends than your gf .
I'm miserable !
Do you know that ?
I'm Lost !
Do you know that ?
I 'm HEARTBROKEN !
Did you feel THAT ?!
Not because you knew i Love you,
So you take my Love as granted .
Than appreciate it .
I'm not sure whether how long i can hold on .
I cant breath properly with proper air .
My heart cant pump properly with proper heartbeat .
I just wish you would be faithful & truthful enough .
Am i asking too much like this ?!
This is what every girls need from their guys .
I 'm sad ,
I wish to cry !
But i can only cry in one of the corner of my rooms .
I don't need anybody else to be here for me .
But only you .
I need a stable shoulder to lie down on .
I need somebody to wipe my tears away .
I need somebody to pamper and dote on me when i need it .
Which is you .
Everything is You .
I need you , and i love you .
Yes , Truthfully ,
I'm miserable .
I'm upset .
Really ,
But everytime i saw the smile one your face ,
I'm contented enough .
I Love to see you smile instead of giving stupid face .
I see you as a Perfect guy even though others don't think so .
I wanna be your pillar even others felt you're too heavy to be lean on.
I hope i'll be the one bringing joys and smile to you every single days.
I 'll take all your pains & troubles away for myself ,
And you to be cheerful and freely everyday.
Whatever it is , I Love you . EUGENE TEO ZHEN HAO .
What about you ?

PTO is starting on 8th June , I'm vexed !
I'm going crazy soon !
Cause the time is crop up .
Went back to company today .
Tomorrow have to attend lessons .
So i'll be very quickly bring my clients and make appointment with boss already(:
Money Money Money Come~
Hope will hit the target of $1000 and above for the very first month of the Company .

2010-05-16T00:20:00.009+08:00

Boat quay , icon & WHERE WHERE WHERE ?!
Still deciding where to go later .
And now i already 12.20 AM already !
Shall upload some photos again while deciding (:

2010-05-16T00:01:00.009+08:00

Alright alright , I'll post something .

`12thMay-16thMay

Went to Neverland with Adeline , shixiang & alot more .
Ahas , Finally i have waited for this days .
Laughs , Freedom was took away from me for 5months !
And now i'm gonna fucking ENJOY !
Stop my rubbish and Let the photos do the talking (:

2010-04-30T19:14:00.000+08:00

Didn't attend school today . Sleep till late morning with `Baby . Mummy cooked something for us ;) `Baby went back after that to do his own things . So did i , Changed & prepared stuffs to swim after i see doctor & take Mc . Met Ah bi next door and rush down to the clinic . Rushed and met Yunhao awhile , Rushed again to Jurong Complex to swim with Ah kiong . Who's my cousin who's just released and another 2 friends he knew in the jail . This 3 Mature men acts like a small kids when they started to stick together and have fun -.- Ah bi & Me went off earlier to go back the clinic . Waited them outside the complex , Went to eat after that . Home Sweet home of course (:

Anyway , I'm back to 登雅龍獅軆育學院 ;)
Will be having training this Sunday ^^

Waiting for `Baby to reach my house area and go walk around and see whether there's any items to buy for our 'Bird Nest' anot (:
Gonna play `Baby 's PSP while waiting for him .

I have a LALALA Feeelings !`

2010-04-29T08:30:00.003+08:00

Reporting this afternoon at Mcys . Shag , Damn tiring . This whole week `Baby will be staying at my house of some personnal issues . Almost late for school today AGAIN ! Am having my CPA lessons in school now . BORED BORED BORED ! 3more weeks to my June Holidays ! Finally i'm a ROLEX-FREE lady ! And i left 10 more hours to finish my CSO hours ! Wooooots ! But the Most important thing now is , No matter what i must find a job to do in this whole for some income . I'm totally fuckin BROKE ! It's time to refill my wardrobe and all kinds of stuffs ): My contact lense , the MAXIE PURE BROWN is arriving today ! (: I'm looking forward , Heeeeeeeeex !

2010-04-27T12:21:00.002+08:00

I almost beat up a malay Fark-up guy in class today . He's named as HANIS . Teachers and friends pulled me away . Wth , If i got no stupid case or no nothing . I would definitely give you a hard time just now ! Just to blame i got ): Lucky, i still manage to controll my temper just now .

Today will be the day i'm taking out the tagging already (:
Tagging-FREE ! ;D
Happy for me uhs ?
Going go Syden today after my trip to MCYS .
Update more when i reached home today .
Promised will take more photos ! ;D

2010-04-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

Enough is enough , i'm sick and tired . First , second , third ...... times of quarrelling and fights . This relationship doesnt seems to be stable and what i hope for anymore . Our character doesnt match at all , both of us doesnt have a good temper . Quarrelling is much more of the part in this relationship than Joy . What i want is how we always envious others outside , Envious them being so loving . Yeah , i know quarrellings is part of the growth of a relationship . But this is really the first time i'm going through fights Every SINGLE DAYS . Even if you're not tired and find it normal , i really find it too hard to accept and getting sick of it . Everyone sees us outside feels that we're really a ideal & sweet couples out there , but this aint the Facts you're seeing . What happen today makes me think , makes me learnt , makes me and asked me to Give up . Should i or Shouldnt' i ? More of my friends told me they have got this kind of problem with their boyfriend too . Their boyfriend got severe Attitude problem , everything which is relate to B/f relationship . I don't wish to have any regrets in my mind after the second incidents . But this time , I have got nothing to say any much more .

Being together with you in this months ,
Was a great learning trail for me .
We went through every ups & down together in the past .
You told me you want me to be your Last .
But Alot of things is beyond of our control .
There's too much things kept in my heart that i hope and would like you to know .
But everytime when i wanted to say ,
it stuck there .
I wish to let you know ,
What i dislike ,
why am i upset ,
Why i'm smiling ,
Why i'm nagging ,
Why i want you to change .
But i just cant tell you face to face .
Sometimes it's rather torturing when i cant even tell you things i kept in my heart for so long .
I hope you would know me deep inside ,
So that we wouldn't quarrell .
I hope my temper can change ,
so that i can also tolerate your unreasonable acts .
How much i hope and tell you personally that ,
How much i Love you .
But everything ,
I don't know whether it's too late anot .
The best way now ,
is to cool down & give each other more time .
Cause we really still don't know each other well .
I may not be an ideal girlfriend ,
But i'm still a girlfriend who can accept the way you're for so long .
You're a good guy .
But you do not have a good temper .
You always think you're right ,
others is wrong .
What i hope for you now is that ,
You can have some self-reflect .
Rewind back EVERY fights and quarrells we had in the pasts .
Think carefully ,
What are the things which lead to all this stupid quarrells .
May i hope that you could find a ideal girlfriend ,
Who could tolerate , cook for you , accept your empty promises everytimes .
Everything i could do in this relationship ,
She can do want in this period when where we needa cool down .
Once you're ready ,
I'll be also ready to hear what you would tell me next .
And last ,
I also wanted to tell you ,
I have never wanted to be so serious in relationship anymore .
Cause being hurt in so many countless of times ,
You wouldn't wanna try again .
You make me love you so much ,
But you make me so disappointed in you too .
When can you let me gain back my trust from you ?
Sigh ,
No point saying all this anymore .

I'm supposed to concentrate on my this coming Mid-year exams than doing some stupid stuff out here . I must get at least average gradings . Than i can get a job on my holidays >< JiaYou ! ^^

2010-04-22T20:07:00.012+08:00

Those days we hang out together .

Jurong East Swimming Complex - `Baby , YiXin , YipLong , Kinon & Me

`Baby , YipLong Bro & Me

YiXin Sis & Me .

Hi guys ! It's been so long that i post . Just change my new Blogskin , Nice ? (:

Shall post something short today . Spending the whole day on the blog .

Tomorrow gonna go Jurong Hq for statement . Troublesome ><

Anyway , congrats me that 5 more days , it's my Tagging removal day !!

Woooooots ! Hope everything will go smoothly till my probation ends . As well as my relationship , studies and everything . Ytd was Our Monthsary , Din celebrate . I'm waiting for our 1 year Anniversary than celebrate (: I'm Bored at home now ! `Baby not meeting me today . Shall see you another than . Shall end here , i gonna catch my show now . B

Byeeeeeeeee ;DD

2010-03-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

23th March

Went next door to find ah bi , which is ah Kiong's Girlf . Was so so bored . we bought the same sleeping gown and went to cut our hair . Wth >< My hair is short enough , but i still go and cut . Wore the sleeping gown and go downstairs . Laughs , we laugh all the way like nobody business . Everyone keep looking at us .. So damn funny ! Than called another ah bee and called Ronni come up and join us play mahjong .. Walked back my house at 8.55pm . Prepared myself after that and waiting for ❤ to come & buy some food for me , as i'm damn famished ! :/ ❤brought his PSP , and we fight and snatch the PSP to play the games >< ❤ left at 5plus this morning , but i still continue sleeping like a log -.- I was really tooo tooo tired . Sorry Baby❤ , everytime at this hours will leave you alone ):

24thMarch
Woke up at 12pm just now . Shall go back to do my CSO after the lunch time at 2pm . I 3 days have not been going ): Shag , quarrelled with Mom this morning . Damn fustrating , I hate people to Nag at me things when they haven even find out the truth yet ! Tomorrow is my court review & ❤ will know what's his sentence for tomorrow . lucky his Officer drag the sentence day , so that we have more time to spent together (: As i don't even know what'll happen tomorrow ): Shall see how later , maybe going to fetch ❤ from his camp - at tampines -.- One end to another end ! Wow ... Shall go prepare now for my cso , Bye ! (:

2010-03-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

Toooo many things happened recently , But i'm getting over it (:
I met somebody who's special .
And there , He's my Hubby ; Zenith ❤ .
He's now currently in his camp waiting to hear for his DB sentence .
Although we still don't have the chance to spend time together with each other ,
We're still as close as our heart could touch each other's want .
I'm worried ,
Very worried for his sentence now .
He still haven call me back from just now there's officers calling him .
I'm getting afraid .

Baby , What i have promised you , I'll definitely bear it in mind .
Not to worry for me if you're really gonna sentence in there for months .
Of course i don't wish to .
I'll write letters and send photos for you .
But i'm just worried about thursday thingy .
My court review .
It doesn't look good at all .
I'm really afraid i wont be able to see you after thursday .
And you dont even know what happened to me .
But no matter what ,
I ❤ you as much as myself .
Can't even forget you even i'm covered by darkness .
I Love You , Zenith ❤

21th March

K-box with ah bi & Ronni clementi . Went to Loyang with ❤ & his bros after that . Met them at bugis first than trained down to Loyang . ❤ & his bro accompanied me the whole night till morning 5am and they went back Amk . ❤ was very very very anxious about his sentence today . Accomapanied him and chatted the whole till now . I Didnt sleep from ytd till now . Shall cut it short , let the photos do some talking (:

❤ has got a seh - kah 's face -.- LOL !

Lol, Ah long action with his Muscles -.-

Kana Snapshot -.-

❤ doesnt aware of his being snapshot at all ><
ZENITH LEE ! ❤❤❤❤

2010-02-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year with Beloved 4 Years Sis - Adeline Koh

Took cab down to Bukit Batok CSC with Adeline . At last never open . Laughs , but just wanna try our luck see whether got open anot >< Took some photos .

Chu Er of New year with my Lion Dance Troupe - 登雅

Took some photos when we go Chu Sai . Fun & Tired . Today actually going Taka chu sai help Others troupe , But coach says there have got more than enough de ppl le . So 登雅 only Yide & Weijie going . Sigh , So bored . Still waiting for Kenny bossy and weijie Bro to wake up ! Later shall have our own Shirt ppl gathering (:

Today must enjoy first , Cause tomorrow must Chu sai again . Tomorrow is chiong wan already , 10 households ! Woots ..

Seee you guys again ! ;D

2010-02-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Meet cindy this afternoon and go for medicure . I spent $50 just for medi&pedi . Wow , Heart super pain . But ok la , one year one time only . Took lots of pictures of Benji (: So Adorable , my beloved baby boy .. Ate my reunion dinner at the evening time .

Anyway , HAPPY NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALLLL !!!!
MAY EVERYBODY'S DREAMS TO COME TRUE & GOOD HEALTH (:

2010-02-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

Woke up by T.Meiling calls this morning . Din go school today . Was tooo tooo tired and overslept. Set alarm at 8am to give asshole morning call . Woke up , prepared and meet T.Meiling . Went to Vivo accompany Laoshu 's mom buy things than headed down to bugis . Meet Xiangho and his friend. He fcuking keep disturb me ! Laughs , Today was really damn funny at Fushion ! Hahaha !

爱上你是一个错

2010-02-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Meet T.Meiling for breakfast in the morning , Went back home to changed Clothes than headed back to her house and Changed clothes too . Meet Jiali and WenHong at Polyclinic . Went to Hke and slacked awhile. Cabbed down to Bugis and get my Clothings. Spent toooo much money today . Oh Gosh . I'm broke . Fuck . Two more days to new year already . Hmm , guess i'm gonna spend this valentine alone again >< Asshole is always calling me after he finished working and only know how to make me angry and Ka me . Anyway,I'm used to it . But sometimes it's rather irratating & sometimes will make me laugh >< So i really dont know i should angry or Laugh -.- I cant bear to throw temper at him , so should i or rather be happy ^^

Asshole , 2 more days was actually or supposingly to be our 1month monthsary . But i know it's impossible to celebrate this monthsary on the 12th anymore . And i dont even dare to think you would be there for me on the 14th . I know and expected it would be I , myself celebrating Valentine alone . This is the 11th days we have been separated . Although we maybe still like how we used to be or so on , But everything in this reality is so much different now . How much i 'm hoping there's one fine day , You really had see how much i changed for you and myself ; putting effort, sacrifise so much for you , You'll call me 'Dear' & say 'Chan Rhuk Khun Mak Mak' once again . I Dont know if the day will come anot . But i just hope for the Best . I know i should face the reality . But i Dont dare and dont wish to . No matter how strong am i , still , I need you . I need what you had given me in the past & how you used to treat me . How much changes had changed in my Life now , I still wont change the Love for you . You know how much i Love you . But you just kept it in your heart . I really wish you could tell me what you're thinking right now & of course you're telling me the truth . Although i lied to you is the reason we had separated . But i had really realised and amending my mistakes already . If time were to turn back , I would hold your hand and hug you tightly , not to let you off and cherished you . Remembering and not to break the promise i had said . I hope what you have said in the past was from the bottom of your heart and trueful enough . I'm praying everyday not just only we're flashing back our memories and to see in our future . Maybe all this is just a crap to you , but it's all from the deep down bottom from my heart .. Although we're just only friends in status , but i really don wish to see you doing things at my back .. I have no right to control you , is just that i'm tooo afraid to lose you .
Takecare my Love .
I Love you .
Chan rhuk khun mak mak ><

2010-02-10T10:00:00.001+08:00

Finally upload some photos , i'm toooo lazy recently . Didnt go school today. Yunhao MeiMei came to find me this morning as every wednesday school start at 9.30 .. Bored . Hmmm , just called T.Meiling . Later eating breakfast with her at mac . Shall have my big Breakfast (:

2010-02-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i have updated . New year is round the corner . Bored . Haven even buy my new year clothes yet >< Shag , At least you're still around for me . Thanks . Waiting for you to online ! So long , better don hong . Laughs , call me and disturb hor .. I'm just with my PRIMARY OLD FRIENDS .. You also sour sour .. HUMPH !Small Gas Ghost . Hmm , miss you so much . Shall see you in few days time right ?

2010-02-03T22:28:00.001+08:00

L.MEILING- ;D
Laughs , You'll this bunch of people recieved news also recieved until wrong news wan uhs ? Not feeling shameless to come tag people with Wrong news ? For me , It's ashamed . When did i become the Sistershood in Bugis . I just merely Hang around with x.Baby they all . We're GOOD FRIENDS . Are you being Jealous That you cant be one of us ? Or Guilty , afraid , You cant be with this group of friends anymore? I dont know who you're . But your parents gave birth to you without giving you name ? That's Pathetic ): You'll hoping us to get accident ? Dont worry , Cause we dont deserved being treated by God like this . People like you 'll who's Evil and Gossiping about others stuffs is more likely to have those Tragic accident (: You must have know us VERY well .. Hmmm , I told Stephanie i'm afraid ? I'm Scared ? Why not say i told Steph i'm afraid of YOU ? Wow , That's was a Marvellous imagination . Stop Daydreaming , You'll wont gain anything by Doing all this Ridiculous and Pathetic things by earning Hundred Millions Dollars ! Laughs , I fcuk by others for free ? Only PROSTITUTE get paid by every Sexual intercourse with guys (: Dont tell me you're a VIRGIN ! WOW , that's more RIDICULOUS ! ;DD If you wanna know the answer why you're still , Look yourself at the Toilet Bowl . It's understandable that you'll doesnt have a Clear Mirror in the SGH ): Everything you'll has been saying was totally NO LOGIC . Even a person with Low IQ will think you guys Love to talk rubbish and play Childish things in my Blog (: I'm a Dog in Jurong ? Because you cant Achieved what i have ? You must be feeling very jealous because you're nothing >< Hmm , Another pathetic thing ): We shared Boyf ? How did you Know ? Have you ever Tried it before ? Than that's very sad thing to say .. If you wanna know the answer , Look yourself in the drain again . And of course , I don even know how to do footdrill . Laughs , I'm been out here for so long .. That's the first time i have do it in my whole life time .. Hmm . It takes time to learn everything . I dont have to learnt so much , Cause i'm prepare to see the world, My Lovely LAPPY and my FAMILY EVERYDAY ! I'm too excited&Over-joyed . It's understandable if i were inside two years . Sigh , Only weekends using Keypad to be a warrior .. Talking things with no linked >< Insulting others like you're not any parents of one . Cursing others to have accident . Most funny thing is , You're welcoming back me to SGH ! Dont worry , i'll not see you there . There's still laws , I'm consience (: I AND FIONA GOT NOTHING TO BE AFRAID . See this thing , Sad again ? Wanted to say i'm Pretending ? Laughs , when someone really did something , We knows who is Pretending .

2010-02-03T21:40:00.004+08:00

TO :D
FROM BABY
Firstly , You come here and tag without putting your name , and you talk all those no sense things ?
Hurhur , What a joke man ! Since you know so much things about Lim Meiling , Then you must be someone who knows us one right ? For your information , Lim Meiling is not Bugis Sisterhood/Brotherhood , She just come down bugis and mix with friends thats all . So who are you to talk so much "no links" things over here ? Perhaps you're jealous or what ? Or you trying to say she shoot Fiona's name out ? Even if Lim Meiling got shoot , What can you do ? Even if she never shoot , What can you do also ? JiaJia and Jiali's things is already the past , and the problem is between the 3 of them , Why must we interrupt ? So you trying to say , If Lim Meiling got police case, We must help her "carry" everything also uhs ? Come on man , What year already ? Do you need me to buy for you a calendar and show it to you right infront of your face that its already year 2010 ? The reason that I asked Lim Meiling's for her hotmail and password for blog is because whatever you type is simply 1 word - RIDICULOUS ! Like I've said , Since you know so many things, You must be either from girls home before , and yeah , You are praying that we this bunch of sisters will go in sit and get into accident right ? 0kays luhs ! We'll wait and see who'll go in :) And what makes you think so that we love gossiping about each other? If it is so , then you must be someone who mix with us before right ? hurhur ! Yeah lahs, We love gossiping about each other, We love exchanging boyfriends with one another , ohya, one more thing , We also exchange parents :) And "different parents" fuck each other one ehs , you dont know ? Or your antenna too short already ? Sorry to tell you this , By what you post and by your typing and emotion , you are that someone who's on my mind already :) Even if you are not that person who's on my mind, ask yourself this, By what you said in the tagboard , What can you gain ? By showing people that Lim Meiling is like a dog inside? Everybody right now is thinking of studies and not gangsterism things, Im not helping Lim Meiling or what , But the way you type, Is seriously damn ridiculous and so fake , Share boyfriend or whatever stuff ? Nobody is born perfect , You yourself know who you are , We might dont know who you are , But god knows who you are.

2010-02-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 1.30pm this afternoon , been having insomnia this few days .. Went to My school there find Yun hao MeiMei awhile than took bus back to my house area . Meet cindy at the Medicure shop there . She is learning Medicure , so be her guini pig of the day . After 1,2,3,4,5.......times of applying and cleaned away ... This is the last result . Spend the almost whole day in the shop . Damn tired . 7pm , my first meal of the day . Having gastric pain after every food i ate . Something is wrong with my stomach . I having lots of illness . Few days ago , Eye infection . Two days ago , severe headche . Eye haven recover than headche , headche haven recover than gastric . Wth . My phone was all along silent again ... Sigh ~

Today should be the day we go out ): Sigh ~~ Cant believe today is tuesday .. Tml not going school anyway .

MISS YOU ALOTTTTTT ~~~!!

Been 4days din hear your voice and 7days din see you already ):

2010-02-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning and go to school . Actually i really don wish to go . But i go in the end . I cant concentrate on studying . School mates says i have changed . I really very very very tired . I didnt even go for PE . I slept in the hall . I dont care , i'm disobeying the teachers like the past . I kept on holding on my phone , hoping for msges . But i saw nothing . I'm disappointed . Bao zhen snapshot this went i was sleeping , while the rest enjoying having their Pe . Whole day listening to the song that you once played for me to hear . Remember you told me that you're the person who hurt most and loved me most . [我就是世界上最伤心的人] I gave me alot of promises before .. Rmbr there's once you sent me a msg ? No matter what our future will become , you'll be here for me . I remembered everything you told me before .. You told me something before , Although i'm not the first you cook for me , but i'm your last . But do you still remember ? Went to Yunhao MeiMei 's granny house after school . Chat alot with her , Share alot of troubles with her . My phone ring suddenly , i saw your msg . I was shocked and over-joyed . You asked me to be a good girl and go school . After few msges , you din reply . I'm disappointed . Although i still look normal to you , but you wont know how much i'm suffering . I slapped myself . Why am i always doing things to make you lose trust in me ? I know you maybe think i see too lightly of this r/s . No , you're wrong . I'm being just too playful and never think of consequences . After everything happened , I locked myself in the room and think . I blamed myself for everything . IT'S ALL MY FAULT TO CAUSE ALL THIS . I'M SORRY TO MAKE YOU ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED IN ME AGAIN AND AGAIN .. tomorrow is tuesday , i know we cant be like all the past tuesday . I dont know tomorrow how am i going to pass time . I don think tomorrow i'll be going school and hospital for check up anymore . No point going when you have lose interest in studies . I'm going to celebrate my valentine this year alone . You wont be coming over for reunion dinner ): Perphaps , i have think too far for the both of us .. it's all my wishfull thinking .. There's no celebration on every 12th . I'm always hoping to post HAPPY FIRST MONTH on my blog . But seems it wont be there anymore ..

I MISS YOU ALOT !!!!
I'M HOPING FOR YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY !
I'M SORRY ....
CHAN RHUK KHUN MAK MAK ...
):

2010-01-31T22:00:00.001+08:00

When to town , Plaza Sing , Bugis today . Everywhere is our Memories . Town , Walked past you , but you din see me . Last time , i don like to go town at all . But after together with you , i'll go there and find you on your breaktime . We'll smoke and joke together . We 'll hold hand and shop around . We still plan to come my house on new year eve to eat reunion dinner together with my family . Do you still remember the first time we watch movie and meet ? Is at Plaza Sing . You make me laugh when you're ordering Nachos . Thinking back of how sweet and happy when we're together .. but i know everything becomes memories already . Today , my phone was in a silent . I really cant get used to it without your calls&msges . Woke up this morning , Din saw your msg . My tears just rolled down . I really dont know why . I'm afraid . I'm disappointed . It was a nightmare for me last night . Worse nightmare . i miss you alot . When i see you just now , I almost burst to tears again . Everytime i seee my phone , i saw our photos . My heart cracks . Everything i do now is unsuccessful . I'm a failure in everything . I cant handle my r/s well . Last time you used to cheat me once . But i forget everything and be together with you . But why cant you forget it and be tgt with me once again like how we used to be ? Sigh ~
Baby was good enough to console and ask me not to cry . But i just cant . Thanks guys for making me laugh today .

I'm willing to do anything to get you back .
Guys , although you think i'm foolish .
But you all wont know how i much i love him and want this r/s to become how it used to be .
我就是世界上最伤心的人,我也是世界上最爱你的人 .

2010-01-31T02:43:00.001+08:00

L = Love you for who you are
I = I'll always here for you
N = Never gonna forget&Love you
G = Greatest & biggest wish to see your msges. Going out with you once is the happiest moment in my Life .
L = Letting you off out my life is the graveiest thing in the world
O = Obstables happened btw the both of us
v = Very Very Very Very sad that you're not going to go through ups&down with me anymore ):
E = eternity doesnt exist anymore
A = Although you doesnt seems to care for me anymore , You still take an important role in my life& Heart
N = Nothing can let me smile&Happy by having you in my Life
D = Don't care any other more things anymore, what i care is all You
Y = why Should things turn out to be like this ?

2010-01-31T02:13:00.000+08:00

I'M AFRAID TO SLEEP ! I CANT SEE BEFORE I RECIEVED YOUR MSG EVERYNIGHT ! IF I'M TO SLEEP , I RATHER NOT TO WAKE UP ! CAUSE I CANT GET TO SEE YOUR MSG AGAIN WHEN I WAKE UP !

FUCK UP LIFE ! I'M LOST ! I NEED YOU !!!!!!!
我就是世界上最伤心的人,我也是世界上最爱你的人 ...

2010-01-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

I know i don have the chance to see your msges every morning anymore .
I know i cant see your calls anymore ..
I know i cant hear your voice anymore ..
I know you wont play & disturb me on the phone anymore ..
I know i wont recieve calls when you're having breaktime anymore ..
I cant recieve any msges before i go to sleep anymore ..
I know we wont be holding on to each other on every tuesday anymore ..
I cant be hugged by you anymore .
i cant be kissed by you anymore .
You wont punch me anymore ..
We wont be like the past anymore ..
I already put in my best effort to hold on in this relationship .
How can i continue my Life without you ?
What have i done ?
What can i say now .
You have no trust in me at all .
You only believe others than believing your own gf .
Why are you treating me like this ?
You're the one who dote me most ,
but you're the one who don believe me .
Everything was on my wishfull thinking maybe ..
My mind was really in the blank now ..
I'm really trying to stay very claim .
Everthing just ended like this .
Perphaps you don love me anymore .
I had done wrong in the past ,
But does that mean i'm always in the wrong ?
You didnt even give me the chance .
But i can tell you ,
My love for you was truth .
Maybe even this thing you wont believe me ..
I really have got nothing to say ..
I dont know what i'm thinking now .
I'm lost .

God ,
I have lose someone important in my Life already .
So take me along with you too .
I have enough ,
It's painful and hurt to go through something like this again and again ..
I'm all by myself again .
Why i have to go through this kind of thing all by myself ?
What have i done to deserved all this punishment ?
Take me away ,
Cause i'm not as strong as how you think of me .
I'm going to fall off again .

Takecare friends .
goodbye my last love ,
andychan .

2010-01-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up this afternoon at 3plus . Dua pao ni taking back his phone already . So complaining to Mom than i have got no phone to use already .. Laughs . So she asked me to buy new phone (: Weeeeetssss ~~ I bought E63 (: Red&black . So happy . Meet T.Meiling at Mac . Came to my house and slacked . She still at my house now , chatting on the phone . Miss my DEARDEAR right now .. Today nv really contact with him ): All the way doing my phone thingy .. . Sorry DearDear ! Actually meeting Ahling , but toooo lazy to go over jurong west already ! Laughs , shall meet you tml okay ? Loves !

2010-01-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Reached home not long after .. Met Adeline and Yunhao today .. Went to polyclinic see doctor again for my eyes . Doctor gave me referral letter go NUH . Walao , so serious . Shag . Adeline&Yunhao accompany me go Nuh take appointment . Take until next tuesday want , Fcuk . Shag .Bored . Dear❤ called me just now than hanged . Cute uhs like tat !? Singapore is sooo small ... On the phone with T.Meiling just now too .. Funny la .. Nothing to post at all today ..

2010-01-28T17:27:00.004+08:00

Currently is Ahling's house . Went to Kenny's Grandma Funeral this morning . Came to bishan after that .. Ahling's parents is still so Humorous . Just chatted with Dear on the phone . Log in to Facebook . Ahniu talk to me inside . All Nonsense , saying Andy Dont wan me already . Laughs . Msged Dear . He asked me ask Ah niu dont talk nonsense . Laughs ! Dear says he's toooo free liao .. hahaha .. Later maybe going J8 or where to see my sunglasses . Really need to buy le . My eyes is getting very serious . Everyones says i'm Pajiao -. - Thanks lor ! Ahling finished bathing already . Shall decide where to go later (:

Dear i miss you ! You everytime say i boxim meet you de , not i boxim okay !
Love you so much !
Byeeeee ;]

2010-01-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

26th January

Woke up in the morning at 7am . Trained down to Amk and find Dear❤ . He came down and fetched from the station . Went to central NTUC and bought some foods home and cooked (: Dear❤ only know how to fried . Haha ! So he bought all the food for fried wan . Went home , Dear❤ fried it (: So sweet of him ... After eating , watch show tgt . Awhile more , we fell asleep . As both of us woke up very early . When i wake up , My right eyes is feeling abit discomfort. I think the reason is bcos i sleep with the contact lense . Went to bath , and cabbed down to Cow 's house voiddeck wait for him . He Everytime saw me , will ask me the same question . You need tissue ? Laughs ! Cabbed down to Cental again and meet T.Meiling and Kazua . Ah bee went home with his gf . Think they both quarrelled again ? Played few matches of Pool with T.Meiling&Dear❤ (: So cute la Dear❤ .. Cow went off first , Followed by kazua and T.Meiling . Left me and Dear❤ ... We was like damn lost . Left we two , dunno wanna go where . Called Ahling , she at Pasir ris . Siaocb ! Buy one dog must go until Pasir ris buy ! Hahahah ! So Dear❤ suggested to go J8 walk walk .. Cabbed down to J8 . Told Dear❤ that bishan & j8 left me lot of Memories . It's me and Ahling . When we used to be very close , we always hang around there (: Dear❤ told me his wan too . Haha , and i ask him U-turn . He laughed . Walked around , is tooo bored there . So Dear❤ say go back Amk lor .. We took bused back .. Laughs , Like ah hai like tat ! Walked around , see handphone .. Than saw Bai wei xiu at Amk there , she's a Mediacorp actress . Dear❤ and i have the same thinking , she's ugly than when she's on Tv show . She's not pretty at all lor ! Walked back to central . Went to eat , than trained home (: Today is damn happy , as finally we got more time for just both of us ((:

Reached home AT 8.30PM . My eyes was getting worsed . Once the light is too bright , my eyes is difficult to open . Especially at Mrt . Omg . When i reached home , quickly bath and rest . Chatted with Dear❤ on the phone awhile and told him i need to rest le . So he ask me sleep early . Went to sleep after that .

27th January

Look at how red and swollen is my eyes this morning i woke up . I cant even open my eyes . So today i didnt go to school . Went to Polyclinic and take Mc . I told the doctor maybe is contact lense infection . And he ask me not to wear contact lense and swimming for 2 weeks . Now, i can only see things with 1 eye . Omg ! The tears kept on rolling down ! Wtf ! So irritating . People around keep looking at me , as i kept on frowning my eyebrow and forced open my both eyes . It's toooo red . The doctor says it's very serious . So he gave me 2 days Mc . If two more days, it's still the same . I have to go back . Mom actually wanted to acc me go , as she's afraid i cant see things and take wrong bus -.- Laughs , where got so kua zhang ... Went there , the staff says must wait until 1.30pm than can register . Wtf , waited for almost 1hour . Lucky Dear❤ called me and chat with me . Went to register around 1.35 pm. Went to the Room outside and waited . Finally it's my turned to consult the doctor . Took my medicine at pharmacy & make payment at the counter . Took bus home after that . Almost took the wrong bus -. - Eyes vision was very blur . Laughs ! Now i'm posting my post . Chatting with Dear❤ on the phone (: He ask me go sleep , rather than used comp. haha , scared i Hong ~ Laughs ! Alright , I shall go rest already . Must Listen to what Dear❤ said (:

ANDYCHAN , LOVE YOU SO MUCH ~ YOU ALSO DONT HONG OKAY ! ;D MUACKS ! ~~

2010-01-25T13:21:00.001+08:00

Siaocb ahling , wait for you dota until i at here eat my Fav fruit ! DURIAN!!! Yummy sia , so long din get to eat le(: Aunty buy for me de ..
Ytd chat with Dear❤ till.2.30 than sleep le. Ytd very tired .. This few days nv get to sleep enough... I'm still deciding wanna go Kennyboy grandma funeral anot.. Hmmm , i'm bit of 'Pandang' person ._. Shall see !
Waiting for Dear❤ to have his break .. he's late for work again . Naughty baby . Everynight dont wan sleep early .. hehe (:
Shall enjoy my Durian while waiting for Siaocb ahling& Dear❤ !

This are the photos taken ytd and the day before at bugis (:

Ytd taken on the train to town (:

Fushion toilet with T.Meiling ;D

Baby and her Babe(:

Snapshot , Steven Emo-ing .

My leg was too tiring and painful . Snatch ah siao slipper and wear . He's forced to wear my Heels . For awhile . Laughs !

2010-01-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

This Part of Post is for AhLing ; XiaoGirl .
It's been ages that we didnt meet up already . After so much misunderstanding & Conflicts had passed , we're still like the past . It's the new year , Let's forget about the past and carry on like how we used to be (: People outside may see us weird , as we always quarrelled . Not long after , we're okay again . But this time is the worsed and longest want . It's over means over , and Let us not rake up the past again (: Our relation right now is better than how we used to be . So guys , dont ever try to break us up ; as you wont have the chance to do so (: Love you like how i have loved you in the past ;D

Met T.Meiling today . Went to PS first meet Kazua and ah bee they all . Not long after they went to hougang and do some stuffs . While i took cab down to Taka and meet Dear❤ (: Went to shop around while he have got 3 hours plus break time .. He's so Cuuuutttteeeeeee ;D T.Meiling they all came back and find us at Taka . And Dear❤ have to go back work le .. Shop around for Brandeds . Damn Gorgeous man ! Saw a Burberry bag , monogram kind ; Gucci Big Handbag , Louise Vuitton Sling bag . Wabiang ! Cant resist the temptation -.-
Went to Dear❤ working place and eat (: Cab down to Ah bee they all de work place . 7plus , Cab to Station and trained home . Dear❤ called and chat with me (: Reached home and thinking of tidy up my room . So messy , see already very moodless . So when i was tidying up , Dear❤ called again . He knocked off from work le ;D Chatted awhile , quite long actually.
Tonight shall put mask , Waiting for Dear❤ to online . Shall Dota with My AhLing ;D Tml maybe meeting her , miss her nahs ^^
And Lastly , Dear❤ have the whole day with me in 1 more day ! Looking forward^^
I LOVE YOU , ANDYCHAN ! ❤❤❤❤❤

2010-01-24T02:16:00.000+08:00

You're such a bitch man ! Still can say ppl Do love with you . Still not enough ? Still say cant even count through fingers and toes uh ! Sibei jialat . You're worse than a Douchbag !

I'M NOW REALLY SIBEI PEKCHEK . KNN , ALL LIKE MY FAULT LIKE TAT . I DUNNO LA , CANT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE . FCUK . REACHED HOME, ON LAPTOP . ALL FCUKING PROB COME . I'M TIRED ALREADY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SICK AND TIRED UHS ! I'M NOT QUARRELLING WITH ANYONE , BUT I REALLY NEED SOMETHING TO VENT MY ANGER ON NOW !

2010-01-23T21:46:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 7.45am this morning ! Met Lizard at Je stations for Prog at MCYS . Shag , today i was an early bird ! Chatted with Dear❤ over msn til 3am ytd night . We was late for prog today>.< Went to Meet Dear❤ awhile as he starts work at 1pm . Trained down to bugis and meet T.Meiling&X.Baby& her Babe . Slacked . Trained down again to Amk with T.Meiling meet Ah niu , ah bee they all . Saw Simon , Long time din see him le . His New tattoo was Damn freaking Ugly ! That artist doesnt even have the sense of art >.< The tattoo artist's name cant be revealed (: Dear❤ called during his breaktime , Maroon Ah niu keep disturb ! Than ahbee keep ka my T.Meiling ! hahahaha ! HELLO KITTY ! They went off to work as i dont want to follow . As it'll be inconvenience for me to go home from there . So i met Xiaogirl at Amk station . While waiting for her , went back to find Simon and have a few matches of pool at K-Pool . NO form today ! Walked back to Mrt station and meet xiaogirl . We got so much to talk about ! ;D After so long & so much misunderstandings & conflicts , we're still like the past . Everything was than Maroon eileen - As what she 's known , Incorrigible Douchbag - Slut , Bytch !
Took train back to Jurong , ah siao called and say wan meet me Jurong . So met him awhile with xiaogirl and bused down to her Bf workplace . Ah siao really is Ah siao . BTH ! Cabbed back home .
Dear❤ called and chat with me awhile as it is his smoking break . shall upload the photos taken just now when i'm free ;D
Shall dota tonight with Xiaogirl , hahaha .
Waiting for my Dear❤ to be back home (:

2010-01-23T00:21:00.001+08:00

I TOP UP MY PHONE LE ! ^^ Chatting with deardear❤ now (:Meeting Lizard THIS morning at 8am at Jurong east Station . We're going to MCYS for our Prog together (: Wake up at 7 ley ! Omg !!! Going to Chat with deardear❤ le ...

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;DD

2010-01-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

Took few days ago at T.Meiling house ;D

I'm toooooo Bored at home !;x

Can you find any of her armpit Hair ?;D

Benji (: He's getting old , But still ; My Baby Boy !;D

Can you imagine that there's once a person , who is important in your Life had betrayed you . Cause of her own fault and retribution ? Can you imagine when that person needs a pair of ears,Console, help, financially and moral support , you 're the first to be there for Her ?And even let her think she's a burden to you ? But in the end , What did i get from her ? This photo is took on my Belated birthday&Panda's Birthday at Chervon . She bought us this cake . Until now , i still cant believed what i heard and the truth is REALITY ! Thanks , Thanks alot LIM SER LI ! You gave me and Fiona a BIG BIG SURPRISE ! I'm Consience (: I'm not afraid . Continue your stories and enjoy the food there okay ? Bytch , there's many things you have done which it's irrelevant . Which is what a Slut is doing . I dont want to say and Spoil your reputation . I have got a bad mouth , but i still have a good heart (: So dont worry , i will keep it as a secret ;D Sistership ? No thanks , i 'm afraid already . Thanks so much (:

Reached Tanglin Div' 2pm sharped . Fiona went in before me . Met T.Meiling and Kazua ah bee they all at Amk after that . They are damn damn funny ! T.Meiling was being blend by them until very jialat ! HAHAHHAA ! Cab down to Bugis Meet Ah siao awhile . Trained home at 8pm . 8.30 pm , Dear❤ called T.Meiling's phone and ask me where am i (: Haha , I'm on my way home le ! Dont worry Dear❤❤❤❤ !! Loves !
My phone is LOW PREPAID ! I'M STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS !! ~~ I cant contact with Dear❤ le ): I'm feeeling so super duper grieved that i cant contact Dear❤ the whole day );
Any part time job for weekends ? Before 8pm which can end work ? HELP ME ! I'm super in need of CASH ! GRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!

2010-01-21T22:36:00.002+08:00

Chat with Dear❤ Yesterday night in the msn till 3 am . Dear❤ was late for work again . Went to meet T.Meiling at her house . Slacked awhile , Cab down to MCYS accompany her report . Since i'm here , went to find my CSO officer to ask about my CSO thingy while T.Meiling is with her PO . Chat alot with Ms ho . When was about to go , my PO called me and asked me go back . After PO call , Tanglin's IO called me . Shag ~ She asked me to go Tanglin and report tml 2pm . Sian ji bua ._. After everything, cab down to Mrt station and trained down to Town and looked for my beloved Dear❤ (:
Scrolled around and waited for Dear❤'s breaktime . Went to eat at the Foodcourt . When to smoke after that . Dear❤ was soooooo cute , He don even dare to call me 'Dear ' . He shy -. - And he whispered at my ear . LAUGHS ! At last ask him call again , he gave me a kissed . Hahahahas ! Crazy Baby ! Trained down to Paya lebar with T.Meiling and meet ah bee, Kazua they all , as Dear❤ has to go back work le ):
8.30pm , Dear❤ called . Asked me where am i , and ask me faster go home . He's afraid i'll be late (: Dont worry Dear❤ , I'm know you are concern about me ;D Took cab home with T.Meiling after that . Lucky nv late -.- Nowadays , Tagging was so POP le uhs ? Everyone is on Tagging >.<
Just recieved Dear❤ Msg , He finished work le (: He asked me wait for him online ... And also waiting for him to comfirm next tuesday go where (: T.Meiling Jio SENTOSA ~~ Woots , Shall see again ;D
Love you DearDear❤ , Muacks ! ;*

2010-01-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

Woke up in this afternoon at 3 pm . That was very late . Yesterday was with Dear❤ chatting on msn till almost 3am . What a nice weather yesterday (:
When to sleep after that . Recieved Dear❤ Msg not long after . He sent me a very touched and sweet msg , that i really dont know how to reply him . And i dozed off -. - Laughs !
The Msg goes like this :
DearDear i am here again .. Just wan to tell you no matter what our future will become , i know that you had already walk into my heart and it will always gonna stay there .. Chan rak khun mak mak .. Nights , muacks ..

It's sweet to recieve his msg everyday when i wake up (: He brightens up my day . He's the one who make my phone busies and flood with Love Msges ;p
My phone cant stop ringing ;D Dear❤ ask me to guai guai and wait for the next tuesday again ... Hope Dear❤ will have another 3 1/2 hours break again ... Hmmm .... So we can eat our lunch together again . Miss him so much ..
He ask me to wait for 5more months until he change his job , So that he got more time for me . But my court review is approaching . Fresh case coming . I dont know i have the chance to be outside here anot ? Sigh ~ I'm stressed . I'm not afraid of going in . I just cant put down My loves one out there . Especially Dear❤ , Tan Meiling & Daddy Mommy ):
What should i do ?
What a Good Sister i have , Who Put me in this State ! Fark you ! Liar Bytch !

2010-01-19T23:18:00.001+08:00

Dear❤ ask to take photo tgt (((:

Nahs , return you too (: Muacks !

A sweet Kisses from Dear❤

Look how act is my TanMeiLing (:

See , ah Niu stupid face , HAHAHA

Dear❤ Shy la ;p

Woke up in the earliest morning today , As i'm meeting my Dear❤ (: Dear❤ fetched me at my house downstairs and meet TanMeiling . Went to AMk -> Fetch Ah niu , -> Hougang , Fetch Kazua , -> Bugis , Meet Ah bee and his Girlf with two nephews . Damn Cute !~ Than back to AMK central play a few rounds of pools . Went to geylang awhile , And home sweet home (:

It's fun although there's some misunderstanding with Dear❤ .. Everything is just a start , It's the first test we have to take . And i believe we could go through and conquer everything together till the end . Dear❤ , everyday after dawn , I Love you more than anything else . Chan Rhuk Khun !

2010-01-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

Meet TanMeiling at her house Today . Went to Parklane with Ahseng And Ah jie for some matches of Billards . Went to Tan jong ru slacked . Ate our dinner and Home sweet Home . I dont wish to go home Every Single day . I hate to be controlled. But anyway , It's quite contented to be home early by not reaching home late . I dont have to be nagged (: Phone is not ringing , X-box didnt alert .

Finally it's Sunday . So i can see my Dear❤ in two more days !! ;D Weeets !

Love to see Dear❤ Msges in the morning before he go to work and 5pm on his break time (: This is the only way we could contact in the day time ...

What i'm praying for is i will get a good report for my court review as well as in school . And hoping My 4 months tagging and 11 months probation will quickly end soon . I left 1 more weeks to finish my Suspension . I really wants to study . I wanna passs my N levels . I have been regreting not to study in this past few years. This time is really the last chance i can study already . I must take this opportunity to get a good result ! Sigh , i'm afraid i cant catch up with this 2 weeks assessments ! ): Gonna Buck up !

Sometime, i really need somebody's Moral support to encourage me on studies and CSO .. Hmmm .. I want to be a good girl . I want to stay out of troubles . I want to have a bright future , and lastly , i want to be with someone i truely Love .. You know Who you are (: But everyone needs time to change . Give me time alright ?

And today i'm abit , just abit of down . Feeling more sad than angry about what happened just now ): I dont know you believe me anot , But we just cant stop others mouth from talking craps ;X But i'm really very upset ! But i still managed to hold back my tears .

2010-01-16T21:55:00.004+08:00

Photos we took on 10th Jan at Sentosa (: Finally get to upload today.

Sigh ~ Everyday late going home . Bored . Really Hate going home early ! When than can i be like the past !? Fark up life i 'm leading now .. Sometimes i really have the urge to run . Somehow , i shouldnt and i managed to stop myself . But how long can i take it , i got no idea . 2more months is my Court review already . My school report is so sucks . At least there's still some good record that i have been studying attentively in class . Ytd i went to Programmes with Lizard and TanMeiling . Meiling go Other place first , While Lizard and me go for our Programmes at MCYS . While we're having our 5 mins break time , I went to smoke . Just i was about to Light up the ciggarate , one of the PO came . So we went off . We walked to the canteen , saw some malay friends smoking . So went to join them . And WTF ' the same PO came . Kana fark upside down . Shag ~ I was the last to release , Cos i have been warned 2nd but i still make the same mistakes -.- Went to find Tan Meiling after tat . And i was Late home again ytd !

Woke up in this afternoon at around 2 . With 50 PLUS MISSED CALLS from TAN MEILING ! And 1 from Dear , the rest is other friends . Wow , TAN MEILING you very TOKONG ley ~~~ Woke up and answer call her back . Went to Prepare and trained down to Parklane find her , Doris and her Boyfriend . Went down to bugis for few rounds of Billards and Pools (:

Home sweet Home (:

Din get to see you for 4 days already ): This 4 days seems to be like a Zillions years !

Counting down till Tuesday ! So i can get to see my DEAR ! ;DDDDD

I MISS YOU LA ~~~~~~~~

ASS ! (:
Hehe , you just text me and say you miss me too (:

And you said you'll give me a BIG BIG HUG , So you better do it !

LOVE YOU MANY MANY !

Going to do some other stuffs while waiting for Dear to online (:

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (: ~~~~~~

2010-01-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

eh ESMONDLEE (: sometimes someone is timid mean timid (: dont have to say ppl is begging you. who are you to let as beg you ?don even fcuking dare to pick up your fucking bloody phone . why not stannd up for yourself and speak up ? thought you like to act an BIG FUCK infront of me ? Look yourself in the mirror la dude ! using com to lie around and say you saw them b4 where where where? Act like you're a nightlife? go boatquay chiong ? don fcuking throw your fcuking bloody face la ! i go chiong you still drinking your mom's milk ! so what if i'm xiaomeimei ? at least i know more than you , BLOODY DOUCHBAG ! it's a pity thing that you're still living in this beautiful world ):SIGH ~ it's a pathetic ending that i ahve been tgt with a useless freak once b4 .so now you wanna say you're playing me all along ? Har ! see who's playing who (: you're nothing but an inpredictable and incorrigible DOUCHBAG ! you're a very disgusting species who lives within irony and self contracdiction ! A restless liar who will stoop at lowly and unsrcuplous means to get a people !

2010-01-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

Met TANMEILING at Mac today . Came home with her , FLY HIGH HIGH ~~~~
Took bus to Jurong west with TANMEILING and meet Doris (: Haha , so many funny things happened today ! TAN MEI LING , STOP ALL YOUR NONSENSE LA ! STOP FCUKING MAKE ME LAUGH LEY ~! HAHAHAHAHAHA !

I'll put Alarm Clock and wake up wan la ! Dont worry , TANMEILING ! I'll be waiting for you ~~~~ HAHAHA~ Dont need keep spam me want !
Today must sleep early already ! Tml must wake up early ! ASS YOU TANMEILING ! (:

ANDYCHAN YOU BETTER DONT HONG ! HAHAHAHAHHA !
LOVE YOU LA ~!

2010-01-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

Thanks Melody ! Will last de la .. HAHA ! Now chatting with him (:
You too , faster find someone who you really love and he love you de ! ;D

ANDYCHANMUNKEONG , LOVE YOU LA ! YOU DONT SO SWEET LEY ! TONIGHT I CANNOT SLEEP LIAO ! WAITING FORWARD NEXT TUESDAY !

2010-01-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

SAY WHAT YOU LIKE ! I HAVE ENOUGH . ALL SAYING THEIR OWN THINGS ! YOU WANT ME HOW TO BELIEVE ?! DO AND SAY WHATEVER YOU LIKE , SAY I HAVE NO TRUST IN FRIENDS ALSO CAN . BY ALL MEANS ! I HAVE SEE THROUGH EVERYTHING , AND TIRED OF IT ! AND YES , YOU DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN SO MUCH . WE 'RE NOT RELATE AT ALL ANYWAY . AND THIS IS CALL 'TRUE' FRIENDS (:

2010-01-13T20:56:00.001+08:00

爱太痛

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对

我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡
吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对

我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了

我不能够不能够不爱了

吃不能吃睡不能睡

2010-01-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

True Friends ? Only Stupid idoits believe there's something call TRUE friends want . True friends DOESNT EXIST . And today i make a brilliant move okay . Thanks la eh , 'FriendS' . You know WHO YOU ARE ! I dont have to point out .
HYPOCRITES !

I GOT MY OWN CHOICE TO BE WITH TOGETHER WITH WHO I WANT ! YOU ALL HAVE NO RIGHT TO GIVE ANY IRRELAVANT COMMENTS . THIS IS MY CHOICE , MY PATH . THERE'S NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU GUYS ! I DONT NEED ANYONE TO INTERFERE MY RELATIONSHIP. I'M THE ONE WHO LOVE HIM , NOT YOU ! SO WHY ARE YOU TALKING SO MUCH ABOUT OTHERS PEOPLE AFFAIRS ? STOP BEING A NOISY PARKERS OUTSIDE OTHERS DOORS . MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS LA . NO ONE IS PERFECT , AND EVERYONE HAVE GOT PAST . BUT DOES THAT MEAN YOU CAN GIVE INSIGNIFICANT COMMENTS ? AND I TELL YOU , I LOVE HIM . SO ? (:

Woke up this morning , Saw Dear❤'s msges . And Christina . So sweet of him (: Meet up with adeline they all . Slack Slack Slack . Thanks guys for everything today (: Thanks alot . Nothing will happen to me . I have my own ways to do things . There's still law in Singapore okay . Beware , You wont escape the law ! (: Slack with them , Just remembered Dear❤ told me he got a break time at 6pm . So i quickly take out my phone . Just nice , He text me ((:
Everyday looking forward for tuesday . That's the only day i can meet Dear❤ ... He needs to work , so i dont blame him at all . No choice , he's now on tagging . Difficult to find suitable timing jobs . After tagging drop than he can change job (: He say like tat than got more time to accompany ;DD Dear❤ keep ask me dont hong , if not he give me more punches-. - Siao already ! Waiting for you to finish work now (;
I MISS YOUR PUNCHES BABY !

Dear❤ CHAN RHUK KHUN !

2010-01-13T00:01:00.001+08:00

12th Jan

Today was suspended from school two weeks . Omg , This time really Jialat . How am i going to catch up with my homework ... Another sad thing occurs ):
Dear❤ went to fetch me after school today . So SHY ! I nv put on my makeup , wearing big big size uniform ! Hahaha , He drove me home and change with his friends . His friends are all damn supper funny ! Went to Cine , 45 mins than reached -. - Dear❤ lose the way . Lucky he call his friends for help to tell him how to go . After reaching cine , We are still deciding going to watch movie or go K-box . At last Dear❤ drove us to PS and we watched the Vampire Assistant . Almost fell asleep -.- SNORE ~~~ Went to top up cash card and left the both of us . Went to have dinner at AMK Mos burger . Dear❤ gave me alot of punches today . LOl . And , Home sweet home (:

Chatting with baby now , hmmm ...
Dear❤, I'm going to post your full name out big big ! Dear❤ say next week go out we take photo tgt and post big big... HAHAHAHAHA

I ❤❤❤❤❤❤ You luhs ! ANDY CHAN MUN KEONG ! ;DD

11th Jan

Went to Hke met Meiling , Wenhong & Amy . Wen hong is having fever . Lol . He went home earlier . Amy and Me accompany Meiling buy top up card . Find somewhere to seat and slack . The 3 of us really abit siao siao le .
And as usual , went home with meiling . Have to reach home by 9 . SAD ):

10th Jan

Meet Tan.Meiling at her house in the morning . Meet X.Baby in the train and went to Sentosa together. Met him and his another 3 friends and a dog . X.Baby cant go in the water as her hand was badly injured . Poor Baby ): They went off earlier . Left the 3 of us . So we went to shower and headed to Vivo and find Laoshu . Ate Long john Silver . T.Meiling was the Joker of the day ! Laoshu, Baby& me Laugh like hell . Laugh until stomach cramp -.-
Went to bugis after that . Have a few rounds of pool with BoBo and X.Baby at Fushion (: Went home after that .

Photouploader is having problem ! can't upload those photos ! shall upload when it's done (:

2010-01-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

Ever since we have not contact ,
My mind ,
My heart is blank .
My Life is dull .
I became Lifeless .
I don't want what i want to do next .
I got no goals in my Life .
In the past ,
I thought i can do anything because you're here by my side .
And , I'm definitely wrong .
There's many things happened today.
Today is a terrible& indescribedable weekend for everyone of us.
Especially X.baby& Me .
She was hurt physically and mentally .
I'm trying not to think of you anymore .
But everytime they mentioned your name ,
I cant help by not thinking of you .
You gave me hopes and gave me hell .
My Life is now worse than the Hell gates !
I saw you today ,
And my tears almost ,
almost rolled out .
But i still managed to hold it back.
Why must i be strong infront of you ?
I cried to sleep ,
I have been having bad dreams .
When i woke up ,
I grabbed my phone and see .
There's msges and calls ,
But not from you .
Other than you ,
No one can make me smile and giggle infront of the phone .
I have loads of billions of Troubles .
I'm really afraid i cant take it anymore .

I'm just a normal human beings.
I'm just a girl .
Why am i suffering from all this things ?
Problems comes and goes .
But when can it stop ?
Why can't i have peaceness just one day ?
God, is always giving me something and take away something at the same time.
But now ,
God is really tooo greedy and take away too many things from me .
My beloved Sis ,
And my Love one .
Why am i so foolish with every decision i make ?
Why am i always the one who's suffering ,
Yet you're enjoying out there ?
Why everytime time problems ocurred and i'm the last to know ?
Why do i have to act a strong person infront of others?
Why do i have to listen to you ?
My brain is cracking ,
Is bursting .
My Heart is stopping .
I just cant accept the facts .
I just cant go back to the reality .
You're like killing me .

I cant get used to how my life is leading without you .
I Dont wish to contact you ,
Because i don wanna make you feel i'm irritating .
I don wan you to think i am interfering your Life .
Lastly ,
I dont want you to Hurt me ANYMORE !

I miss you badly ,
I need you insanely .
Thanks to you who land me in this state (:

2010-01-09T00:17:00.001+08:00

It's you make me feel my Life is full of hope .
It's you who make me believe i can forget him .
It's who make me Smile every night after reading your msg & calls .
It's you who make me feel i'm doing my duty as a ''girlfriend'' .
It's you who make me turned crazy everytime after readin your text in front of my friends .
It's you who gave me hopes .
It's you who make me Love a person again.
It's you who make me Happy.
It's you who make me upset.
It's you who make me worried.
It's you who make me cried.
It's you who Lie to me.
It's who's Break my Heart !

I cant fail to be waiting for your text and calls everynight until you text me . Even how late it is ,
even how tired I am ,
I dont even bother .
Even i have to wake up very early in the morning to go school ,
i Just wont fail to wait for you to go to bed till i sleep .
I'm going to turn bonkers because of you .
Everyday starring at the phone ,
awaiting to recieve your calls & msg.
I cant even concentrate in class when i'm having lessons .
My mind is all about YOU YOU YOU !
I Dont wish to touch those things anymore because of you ,
as you told me you don like .
It's you who gave me determination to do it .
Nobody can stop me from touching all this ,
only you .
And for this right now ,
I'm very confused .
Thanks to you .
I may be weak ,
But i know i can get over it .
I'm used to it already .
I'm sick&tired of it already .
It's time for me to rest .
But what i really hope is ,
You'll be with the person who you love&love you .
Hope she'll be the right girl .
The most important is ,
She'll love & treasure you like how much i love you .
I wont hate you ,
Cos it's my own foolishness that make things happen like this .
Everything is my fault .
I wont blame on anyone .
I know it's too late for me to regret ,
that i didnt hid everyone's advice.
I used to believe you , i told myself to follow my heart .
And i really did .
This time ,
i maked the wrong decision again .

Takecare , who is once i really loved (:

2010-01-07T12:51:00.003+08:00

Currently in school having my CPA lessons , that was why i'm here doing my posting . I'm been lose of sleeping hours everyday . My dark rings is super dark ! I'm waiting for my Love to come back from his lion dance .. Hehe , I'm not tired of it . Just that i'm now suffering from the physically tiredness .. Yesterday had been chatting on the phone till 2 plus midnight . Woke up at 6.45 this morning , i'm very restless !
Miss you so much my loves ! Counting down the hours till we meet (:
Feelings for you really had deepened .

Baby , No matter what's going to happen in the future ,
I'm going to be by your side ,
Let us hand in hand ,
Walk through difficulties and happiness together down the streets .
I Love You ;D

2010-01-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

This few days , BUGIS BUGIS BUGIS ! With Baby, T.meiling& Dearest (:Tml Bugis again ! Have so much fun with them . Cherishing the every moment with dearest ):

COUNTDOWN WITH T.MEILING at chinatown with her remands friends(:

2009-12-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

MY HEART FCUKING PAIN ! IT's REALLY PHYSICALLY PAIN ! THE PROBLEM IS COMING BACK AGAIN !

2009-12-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

Went to MCYS for Tagging today . Didnt get to meet LIZARD today , as her PO was busy ._. Was late for reporting due to the bus . Met Melody after that at Lavender . Went to Golden Mount tattoo shop inside slack , drew a few art pieces . And she ask me Whether did i ever think of Being a Tattoo artist . LOL.
Today was the first day TAGGING and yet , I'M LATE ! Luckily my 'X-box' nothing happened .

Hmmm , Things is going from bad to worse . What am i going to do ? You make me feel this love is so unstable & insecure . I dont want this ! ):

2009-12-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

Just reached home earlier on , i'm on the phone with LIZARD now . Suffering from whole body-ache now ._. Tomorrow , meeting her 1.30pm to go reporting at MCYS . I'm wearing tagging tomorrow 3pm . Laughs .

Shall have a few matches of Dota first before going to sleep (;

I'm excited to see her mushroom head ! (: I miss her , HAHAHA !

2009-12-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

Everything was finally settled . Was all that scumbag's ! Hey , you wanna Let all of us quarrell and have problem right ? Stop acting like a coward la seriously . All you know is cry . What else you know how to do , Use money buy girls' heart ? Ya , I'm talking about you - ESMOND LEE . Dont act like you're the victim and innocents in the whole episodes . You can lie and make up words to others and your brother , but not us . I know you'll read my blog (:
GO AHEAD AND TELL MS WONG OKAY ? (: That was an interesting game, MARVELLOUS ! YES LUHS ! ;DD
Waiting forward man .
Anyway , Ytd say until sat sat wan come down bugis - 2pm ? With a few friends? Why dont want to answer ? And say you'll be reaching in 15mins time, than ask Joseph and his girlf to answer instead . Eh , c'mon la . You think you really very sat meh ? Everytime tell me your 'Story' , I'm not 3years old kids man . Useless tramp .
I'm more to regret and sympathised myself for knowing you this kind of no desciplinary scumbags like you than thanking you for "helping" me !
Ha ! 'Help' ? Help LANJIAO LUHS , Trying to push all the blames on me ?
Wanna tell lies and make up stories also dont know , Ownself PUA KANG ! Brainless
DIU LEI LEY , CHAO HAI (:

AWWWW , weijie wanna beat me eh ):

He say i told our PO that i tell her he and Baby wanna find my trouble eh ?
And my PO gave him court warning letter .
Since he said is he & baby , Why there's nothing happened to Baby ?
Insult all you want la huh , Let settle things out at bugis since you already put the venue and time ^^
I AM SO SCARED LA , WEI JIE WANT BEAT ME !!! ):
MAMA , HELP ME ! (:

Met T.meiling around my house than to pioneer meet Baby & Nana . Trained to Bugis . Went to 269 and have some drinks .
Went to Pool fushion and have pool match with John, LOL.
3 ROUNDS ALL LOSE LA ! Damn expensive luhs .
Tml than show you My POWER LA HUH !
Laughs !
Here are some of them (:

see how Cho loh she seat ? HAHAHA

Dont act cute ley ..

I din force her to do this !

See , again . Snapshot ppl want !

It's been so long i din post up my photos le uhs ?

Going to bed awhile more , Msn-ning with T.Meiling . HAHA , She siao liao !

2009-11-30T10:31:00.000+08:00

❤ is coming later , Buy breakfast for me (: Later going out . Shall decide where to go when he reached . Tml is my last court hearing already . And of course i'm anxious about it . No matter the Judge Sentence me Light or Heavy , I have to accept it. I cant do anything at all . Takecare guys (: When i'm out , will call up you guys . Shirley , I'm gonna miss you . Loves .

2009-11-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's been so long din go round & round le ):

So bored so bored so bored , Life's boring ..Went to eat breakfast at 262. And borrow ah liang's car and drive back home myself .Fun !Hahaha..I'm getting my Car&Bike license in 2years time.Fcuk , why cant i get it now ? Damn. I miss Sebai Sebai ): So Bored at home , Fuckin Probation . Spoil my whole holidays. Damn it . I cant round , I cant Pub , I cant Club , I cant do anything ! And now my cigg left few sticks only , how to dong till tonight ? Going to take from dad .__. Byeeeeeee (: Webcam-ing with my Dearest Yunhao Sis ! She just came back from HK :)

2009-11-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

Went to Westmall Today with CIndy .And saw eileen. Actually intend to eat Sub-way . At last we decide to eat Mos-burger. As Sub-way comesout with a very big potion. I cant finish everything-.- We called eileen and asked where's she , She was at Sakae Sushi . We went to find her and ended up eating Sushi .__. The Sushi there was really Sucks to the Max !

2009-11-21T00:23:00.000+08:00

I WANT MY LONG HAIR BACK !

PO came to my house earlier just now at night for

Home vist . She asked me whether she could come in

My room . And i say can , But you don't Wa ley .

Laughs, she asked me why , and i asked her ownself

Go and take a look . The moment she step in my room,

She almost Wa ! My room have got More than 50 packets

Of ciggs ! Laughs !

Can you see that ?

Shall upload more photos tomorrow (:

Gonna meet Cindy later on and buy Cigg .

Gonna Bathe now ,

Byeeeeeee ;D

2009-11-20T02:21:00.000+08:00

I'm getting this Latest Sony Ericsson Yari ,
I don't care ! No one is going to stop me from getting this !
This is the best choices to get guys ;D
I love this phone so much from the first glance on it ((:

2009-11-20T00:26:00.004+08:00

Harry Sister (:

Went to timah play Pool this afternoon .

Took this photo for a Memories for us ;D

Years ahead ,

The Bond of our Sistership would never change .

Yunhao Sis ,
Miss you so much when you're overseas .
Hope you're doing fine there too (:
I'm here in Singapore for your return !
Was so surprise to see you online just now.
Thanks for your accompanied whenever i needs
you. Thanks for the everything you had given
me. Whether it's love , care or financials helps.
I know you have try all the best you could just
to see my glance . I love you . You're Best of the Best ! ;D

Falling in love with you is Miserable .

もし私になった自分の過去

2009-11-19T11:34:00.000+08:00

Just woken up ,
Recieved Harry's Msg and another person .
Asking whether i wants to go timah for my Favourite Balls game anot .
That's POOL ! Woooots , that's my favourite - What do you think ?
Laughs ..
I''m gonna bathe and meet him after that (:
That's the best msg in the morning ;]

Shall post what happen today when i'm back home ,
Hopefully , i wont forget i have got the stupid Probation ?
See you guys ,
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;DD

I'm Being Lamentable.

2009-11-19T01:35:00.001+08:00

WOOOTS ! I haven changed my Blogskin ! ;D

Recieved lots of msges this morning .
Woken up at 8 .
Prepared to go MCYS to report to my PO .
Bored . After leave there and went home .
Meet Harry after tat .
Smoke , slack and share troubles - Like usual .
Meet wei sheng they'll at 6 plus with Harry .

Went home after that .

Almost late for my Probation .

DOTA-ING all day long, Bored !

Thanks Harry , You're a good Sister (;

Love you !

Take me away , can you ?

2009-11-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

What a fcuk-up life i'm having now ! Seriously , i had enough ... I got no FREEDOM at all ..Totally was tight up by the fcuk-ing probation ! It's so sucks ! First time in my life i'm under controlled by something and there's nothing i can do at all . LPPL ! I cant enjoy at all ... Where is my nightlife ? I used to Club and Pub almost every weekends . I used to go out in the night with a group of riders . NOW ? Not at all ! This is really torturing .. Is like i had fcuking enough of that !

Take me away please ,
I have had enough of all this ..
Whether it's relationship ,
Friendship ,
Sistership ,
This is enough .
It's time to stop .
It's exhuasting ...
Let me forget about who i want to ,
And lead a new life ...
That's all i want ...
I'm afraid one day when i cant tolerate all this anymore..
I might do things that i shouldnt ...
Bring me to some where there's peace , harmony and love ;
And there's a right guy for me to love will be always there for me ..

It's getting exhausting ..

2009-11-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

Ytd when to Ktv with harry , keith , cindy , wei sheng , yong ren , gary , adeline , matthew and jun qing ..
When to play pool with cindy , harry and keith first .
Won cindy in her pool , and she leave at 3.30pm .
Finished singing at 6 pm .
All of us cab down to timah and another round of pool (:
Everyone was at there suan siao wei sheng as he and cindy was tgt b4 ..
He was at there denying -.-
Dont know which of them is telling lies -.-
Everyone got the answer in their heart actually , LOL !
Won weisheng too in his pool ;D
After tat 7.40pm cab home .
Reached home just nice at 8pm , luckily ..
And called my PO .
Went to sleep right after i bathe ,
Ton for another 3 days again -.-
Tat's all for ytd and now ,
I'm damn bored !
Anybody billard with me?
LOL , shall watch some shows ..

Byeeeeeeeee (:

如果我变成回忆?

2009-11-08T12:54:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night supposed to go play pool , but in the end didn't go . Too late le , all closing . Only Katong shopping centre open 24/7 . Already 2 plus , will be having midnight charge . So will be going today bah . Maybe chevron ? Feel like singing too. Shall see , Gonna go enjoy my chicken now . They all say i'm using chicken to numb myself ? Laughs . Instead of drinking to make myself numb , i use the other way round . This is supposed to enjoy , but i din . Sigh ~ I really don't know what i want at all ? My Life is totally screwed up , i got no aims , no nothing .. No difference from Zombies .

It's Boring to walk Alone in a streets .
It's Boring to share happiness with no one else .
It's Sad to cry when your Love's shoulder is not there for you .
It's Sad to see your Love one walking away from you ,
Getting further and further from you ..
Am i stupid , or insane doing all this for you ? Seriously ?
I know i can and should forget you ,
But i just stop thinking of you .
The 'You' of leaving me Happy and Sad memories ..

Is this what i want ? I dont know ):

2009-11-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

1Nov , Got call from my Probation officer . Telling me the my Probation will start from tat day . WTF . This is a trail probation , see whether my result of this probation . If it's not too good , than i will go to the girls home already . I already been home late for this three days -.- how ? Stess , out of sudden i have to reach home so early ?! 8 pm ! 16th Nov still have to go back MCYS report to my P.O . 1st Dec , my last court hearing le .. Life's so boring seriously ..
Gonna meet cindy and eileen for supper later on . Lucky cindy is also having probation , haha . same same . I got no moods for any post and updates le , so tiring ..

That's all for today ,
Byeeeeeeeees ;D

Thanks for leaving me sweet memories of us , I'll be waiting for you ..

2009-10-24T14:52:00.001+08:00

Call you Baby ?
I dont know .
We're tgt this morning at While Dolphin Pub .
24Oct , 3.20am.
It's been so sweet of you from the way you courted me (:
The glance of smile on your face really make me blushed when you get your face is closed to me .
We have make each other alot of promises before getting tgt ..
As i'm afraid history will repeat again .
He's going in this year dec already .
I just want a sweet and memorable memories before he go in ..
And of course , i wanna wait for him ..
At last , I accept his court .
Jason went off first ,
I'm sorry Jason . This is my choices .
After that went off , baby meeting his friend .
And all of them is also know de !
Alamark so paiseh , saw eng hao they all .
Eng hao was like , HUH ? You her girlfriend uhs ??!! WOW , AISEH !
LOLOLOL !! After that went off , Baby went to take his RVF .
Went to Mount faber for our honeymoon (:
So sweet , really .. It's been so long i feel like this . it's been so long , so long..
We talk alot alot... So much so much.
How i wish time can stuck at that moment .
Lying near the beach , only the two of us .
It was like the world belong to the two of us only..
lying on your chest , hug tightly by his two arms .
I feel so being protected , no one is going to hurt me.
Hand in hand , chatting tgt ..
Baby say wil get me a new helmet with my names written on it (:
Hope so .
while we're walking to our bike ,
he told me something , he ask me do i think whether we're abit too fast to be tgt . I know he's like hinting me . My heart sanks, my tears just rolled down .
I dont know why , it's so funny , so uncontrolleble .
He's afraid i will bluff him , i'm afraid he'll cheat me . so funny .
Finally, he tell me the true . He still cant forget his ex .
I know , I knew it . Shall give each other three days .
I dont know what the answer will be .
I'm afraid , but i have to face it . I have to be strong .
I really dont wish to drop anymore tears for guys anymore!
But for him , I CANT! I REALLY CANT !
The whole journey , i'm crying .
I have nv cry like this infront of anyone before .
Since you say like this , why do you still have to give me kiss ?
Why do you still wanna ask me i still want you anot ?
When i reached home , why do you still say you wanna buy my personal helmet for me ? WHY ?
DO you know how i feel like this ? you'll make me she bu de .
DO YOU KNOW ?
Why do you have to treat me like this ?
I really getting ready to get into this love , i'm ready to put in all my love and effort in . What i want was , this two months before you go in , we can have a memories . Why things become like this ? WHY ?
Do you know when you went off ,
I really burst into tears in my room . I control my tears when i enter my house.
i don want to let mom see me like this .
Sorry mummy , i threw temper on you . I'm really moodless
I reached home at 7am , i sleep at 9 . Woke up at 10 .
Just waiting for your text , but i din recieved .
Everyone called me this morning was scolded by me . I'm sorry .
I cant sleep at all . I dreamed of the two of us tgt , at the beach ..
Like how we're ytd ..I asked you why you like me ,
you said bcos i'm cute and i make you wanted to protect me , and dote on me .
I haven been sleeping ,
I really don know what did i do to deserve all this .. I really dont hope for more . Just want your love , care and protection only ? Is that too much ?
You say i'm a very nice girl ? Nice but you dont wan ?
Maybe i'm nt good enough for you ?
The last thing , from the bottom of my heart :

Thanks , thanks for being my boyf for just that 4 hours . You left me a memorable memories , I'll nv forget this day we went through tgt .. I felt being loved, dote and protected by you .Once again , you been asking do i really love you ? The answer is Yes . Please dont doubt on me . I really love you . Whether anot , what will happen in the next three days , no one will knows . Let thing take it natural course bah . Remember, there's always a place for you in my heart . You 're the key to enter into my world . I love you , Baby ..

I'm just hoping for the obstacles to happen ;D

2009-10-23T19:42:00.000+08:00

DAMN Bored !
Staying at home the whole day ytd and today .
Actually , do you know i'm all the while waiting for your text ?
Hoping tat you'll just give me a text ?
I don know why i'll like you so much .
Maybe it's time to forget and give up on you ;D
NO pointing going on like this .
It's miserable for me .
But of course ,
I 'm also hoping for obstacles to happen at the same time .
I miss you , I miss the time with you .
Although we met each other just this once ,
But i'm hoping for more .
Maybe we should really lead our own life and path .
It's time to open up my mind and heart .
Everything , Let the God to decide .
Just wishing for the miracles .

2009-10-21T13:25:00.002+08:00

I'm here at Amk , F's house . Ton at his house over here with P.L too . The whole night pestering me to intro girls for him -. - Laughs , i told him i 'm selfish one . And now my phone was low batt already ! omg ? And i haven had my antibiotic . Hmmm , He 's enlisted ! 2more months to serve the National service . LOL ! He 's damn stress the whole night ytd . Alamark . Dont have to stress de la , i told him . Before going in , you only had got two choices ; one - you find a girl and settle down , and must those kind can wait for you 2 years de ? 2nd , Be a single for two years lor ? I doubt he dont wish to be a single mah .

GTG .

Hospitalised for 10 days in NUH

2009-10-18T15:43:00.000+08:00

I'm discharged ! Hospitalised for 10 days . I'm dying in there , Luckily and thanks to the people who visits me for the past 10 days (: Aunty Jasmine ,
Mr Wong ,
Bao zhen ,
Bao zhen's Mom,
Yun hao ,
SiJing ,
Ronni ,
Ah bi
Eileen ,
Li Mei ,
Sky ,
Jonathan ,
Melody ,
Beng ,
Dua bak ,
Ah orh ,
Ah de
and lots more . Sorry that i left out your names , It's too much to note down . And once again , the one always beside me everyday ; the love and cares for me is never changed . My Mummy and Daddy . Thanks for coming everyday and bring Breakfast for me . As i'm complaining everyday tat the foods there really taste disgusting ! Took lots of Blood test , injections and everything which is to do with NEEDLES ! Omg ! Bruises all over .. bcos of those injections ! I hate it !

I miss my exams . Hope there's a chance to retake it , hope so yeahs ?
Staying at home really is much more different from outside ,
And now , I really feel staying at home is the best ;D
Shall upload the photos in the hospital i took with some good friends (:

Lets let the Pictures do the talking ;p

2009-10-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so so BORED ! This is the first time i

take pictures of myself using my Lappy .

And this's the results of me w/o any make-up ;D

Going down to have supper with ah boy soon .

So boring . tml going to take exam le ,

But still , I din even touch until any of th Paper .

I'm getting worse .

Jurong is damn bored!

2009-09-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

Feel so uncomfortable w/o touch anything today ..
My head is damn super giddy .
My heart is damn pain .
Extremely sick .
Help me .

Dear ask me not to think of him ,
But dream of him .

shakeitbaby

2009-09-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry dearest . Letting her to dirt your blog. Everything is settled already . I din go to school for one week le .. Hmmm , all along with dear , Orh Bah, Dua bak and ah Orh . MIA in Jurong . Sat went to chalet BBQ at east coast - 3 zham tou . Went to Sing Thai Disco after tat , Orh bah open 6 chivas . Drink until all seh . My life was all upside down . Night Disco -Shake and Shake every night , 3-4 tablets . Can you imagine tat ? Morning sleep . I din contact one at all the whole week . My phone doesnt have any balance at all . I don't know whether if this kind of life is right anot .. I don wish to be me anymore . Everynight with all my brothers , shouting out and saying the plegde of 369 ? LOL ? We'll crazies . I have change my blog link anyway (:

Mia

2009-09-11T19:13:00.000+08:00

My God . My blog is rotting ! Been sosososso long din post le .. Shall Post a short wan ? Just woke up just nw . Went to Icon and SEBAI SEBAI ytd . Wow , drink alot alot .. Thai's guys is damn CUTE ((: kekeke , They are really damn funny and cute man . Reached home around this morning . I'm still deciding where to go later ? Drink ? or Fun ? hmmm .. Shall see (: Bye !

2009-09-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

My blog is dead -.- So many things happened . Unfortunate things doesnt stop happening on me. I 'm really tired and sicked of it already . I have nothing to post at all. My mind is in a blank . I dont know why . I 'm just looking forward for my 8th Sep . CLUB clubs CLUBS

FK off bastards (:

2009-08-28T05:21:00.004+08:00

ZZZ

2009-08-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

wow , someone is spamming my blog ? HHAAS ! finally putting her OWN nameSS down uhs ? I'm putting it off , at least i 'm not gonna PRIVATE the blog . One person spam , using sooooo many ppls names ? Laughs, grow up la . So sick & tired , find it funny ? cos you're tooo childish . Shall i get a Lollipop for you ? Maroons . Dirtied my blog , gonna clean it thoroughly . Yeeeeook.

16th July
On the phone with Benson Bendan in the afternoon . Going to prepare and meet him at Farrer park . Melody called me when i was almost done. She says she wanna join us , than i called him whether she could join . He say anything, than i ask Melody to meet at Je mrt station. Trained down to farrer park , waiting for Benson Bendan at the platform. Chit chat with melody . Than saw him , lols. Went to Vivo , was damn hungry . Actually wanted to eat at the Kopitiam , which looks like Old traditional de. But cant find -.- We walked and looked for it for more than an hour :/ We got no choice but to eat Ljs . Melody wanted to eat BK . But i don like it -.-' Slack at ljs for awhile , went to smoke . Than Trained back to my kampung , called james when saw his missed calls. Ask him where's he , he said orchard . Still ask me go find him , crazy -.- Still say gt xtra helmet can pillion me :/ No way , so boring . Hang up , reach Je , Home sweet home :D

cherish what's infront before u lose it

2009-08-17T01:37:00.000+08:00

Tags replies

Melody : hhaas. see how wei da am i ?
Jia Hui : I'm nv MIA luhs. Just tat i 'm very sad over somethings nahs. that's why . Haish .
Amy : I'm now truly regret le , scared le. Dont dare to touch le nahs. Haish , bcos of that , i lose someone. It' totally not worth it lor . SIGH ~~~!

it just end here ):

2009-08-16T15:52:00.001+08:00

since i'm at home , i shall update. As everybody says my blog is rotting. This week din went to school at all. I went to drink drank drunk for the whole week again. Hais , sry for those who ask me don touch all those again . But i cant. I'm truly regret of touching those things back . Because i lose someone important in my life. The moment of harshed , i told him something that i shouldnt. I'm sry 'Baby'. Maybe this's the last time i call you this , cause i know you would hate me . I'm truly regret. That day i really smack fk-ing tooo much already. Everyone ask me to write that kind of msg. Until i was awake , than i realised i sent it ! I know everything is too late already.Maybe it's all fate. After tat day, i din eat at all. I don remember who am i , i feel kinda slapping myself . I drink drink and drink . I really forgot who , me , myself is. Why am i here? Something is missing in my life . There would be a thick scar in my body . Never be removed. Anyway, i just hope we would be the same like before, but i knew you wouldn't . The moment i woke up just now, I dont know why i'm crying... My fingernails had got blood. I pinch myself in my dream . My hand is all bleeding, leaving damn ugly scars on it . So what ? You wont care for me anymore. Seriously, you're the lucky. i have got many choices , but i choosed you . You doesnt treat me good either. Maybe we should just end here bahs .

Anyway , tml i have to go back Jurong HQ to report again -.- BOred. See whether got the chance meet until Steph and ivy not. Better dont let me see until Tat Bytch . CAI YING. bcos of her, the three of us KENA. YIAO SHIU !fk-it. Hope tonight nobody ask me go drink again , i wont go to . Tml comfirm must go report , if not PANG KANG ! Anyway , this few days , Thanks to zy , yiren , ben , baichi , ah zai and more and more and more .. thanks to you guys. Wash my brains. I found a new paths. ZY & Yiren , u guys treat me damn good . Who should i give a chance to ? i dont know. Cos currently i jus wan lead a single and peaceful life (: And i still cant get over him , sorry .

Your Love

2009-08-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

Took this on 5th July with Melody . At Bishan Mrt .

Loves you girls :D

2009-08-09T21:27:00.006+08:00

Meet Meiling& Dearest at Jurong East Mrt Ytd(: Than Meet my 5cents :D

She's so so funny luhs. Shop around , and we bought the same Dress . Look at the pictures of the three us and you'll know- Dearest , 5cent &me . Meiling bought the blue wan, but she doesnt wanna wear ):

Something happened ytd , met some -fkers. And 5cents 'treated' her her SUNDAE chocolate ice-cream , LOL. And that f-ker even dare to scratch my 5cents hand, fk-ing bytch !

Took lots of photo (: take a look .

KANA CANDID BY 5CENTS !

Is this fate ?

2009-08-04T21:40:00.001+08:00

Things are really so unpredictable .. Staring at the seas , i think and thinked . Should i really end it ? I really dont know i should give up anot . I know and prepared tat this thing will be happened anytime. I'm really afraid. What if this things doesnt happened ? But i dont think so .. Its so obvious already. Recently , there's really too much things happened. I can't take it anymore. I really feel so unsure of this ♥ . I don't know when things will fussed up this ♥ again . And who'll come between us again . I am afraid , really ... I'm sleeping with fear every night , wake up in the morning , lookin forward for your -good morning msg. Waiting to hear your voice every night . We used to chat on the phone with topics which doesnt breaks my heart. But after tat day , which you says you wanted to leave . As you think it's good for me . NO. Although we're back to normal already , but everything seems to have change le. Yes, You still love me and care for me as you used to . But you have always been hinting me that you'll leave me soon after that incident happened. Every words came out from my mouth are truefully and sincerely deep down from my heart. I told you before, if one day you're really gonna leave me .. I 'll really lost. Cause you're the one who make my life so lively ,so colourful. Without you , it's so colourless. The world will totally become so dark. You have been telling me you really ♥ me so much so much , and you cant bear to leave me . I really hate you to say that you wanna leave me.Its so hurtful .. Really .. so miserable..We seems to drift apart after today .. nothing happened . Just wanna tell you , i♥U

unconditionally loves

2009-08-02T15:04:00.000+08:00

Many things happened recently . I'm really tired & sick .But no matter what , i'm not gonna give up through. So sick of blogging already , nth good and memorable to post this few days . Went to causeway point to meet Dearest Ytd . Miss her damn much . Weiling & her hostel friend was here too , but forgot her name ler -.-' It was her friend birthday . Went to eat Pastamania for our lunch , So yucky man . Weiling & me ate it so unwillingly . Laughs, Almost puke everything out -.-` Quite fun ? Have Our Honeymoon session with Dearest and outside her house , So much things to tell her . So happy & sad.

Without you around , you make me blinded . I din know which path should i go . What should i do ?
No adviser , no Nothing . Hoping everyday for your discharge (:

Reached home at 9plus. Met Sweetest♥ awhile, as some small things happened . We quarrelled abit . than went off -.-'' Everything is alright now then (:

uoyevoli , Sweetest♥

2009-07-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

Went to Sweetest♥ 's Chalet at very late night ; Chevron (: So fun , So sweet & so loving ..We chat alot alot ytd night . He told me alot of things , his Likes & dislikes . I told him mine too :D We know each other more better after last night . Went to swim this morning , Laughs ! We have KFC for ytd night dinner & Macdonalds' for our breakfast this morning ;) Yummy, thanks Sweetest♥ 's mum .Just reached home at 1plus , took cabbie back home just now.Laughs, damn sleepy now . Last night we slept at 4.30am this morning , early bird uhs. See, we got really so many things to say ..I'm dozing off soon . Gonna chat with sweetest♥ later , so can't sleep .

2009-07-29T18:37:00.000+08:00

Went Jurong Point with celesta that time , Til now than get to upload the pics:)

You're belong to Me ♥

2009-07-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

Ya, more&more freaks out there claimed that 'she' is my Sweetest♥ stead or watever shits. Laughs, really make me laughs. Damn stupid. Jealous ? that you cant hold my Sweetest♥ heart is it ? I'm sooo sorry than (: Don't make yourself like a bytch and go around claiming my Sweetest♥ is your BOYFRIEND luhs , hahahas.. Please dont bark around like nobody business , like an unwanted streets-Dogs :)

Sweetest♥ is damn funny , i dunno & really don understand what his tag means ? But i roughly know who's he toking and saying about (:
Recently my low- blood pressure came back again -.- Feel giddy easily everywhere i go . siians. Is now Chatting with Sweetest♥ & Jia hui in Msn. Keep disturb me , LOL.

Not so easy okays ? LOL

2009-07-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

LAUGHS MY ASS OUT !
Someone says she's my Sweetest♥ GIRLFRIEND ? It really makes me laugh ! Sweetest♥ dun even Know her -.- People outside is just wanting to break us up isn't it ? Seeing us so Sweet & you can't right ? Enough of those nonsense and grow up la . And now, Sweetest♥ is tagging & its his first time tagging someone ;) Let's see what he writes ♥

Sweetest ♥

2009-07-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

Went out with Sweetest♥ Ytd & this afternoon. Ytd meet him and his parents at 229 and they bring me to Bedok there and eat so much things -Char kuay teow , Prawn Mee , Carrot cake , Fried oyster , stingray & LaLa ; Omg, only the 4 of us , So full ! His parent was damn funny ^ After our ' supper ' , we went to East coast again :D His parents go for their own honeymoon & we go ours . Laughs , Sweetest♥ still got his own ways for our romance♥ We walked so much so much ..Almost like the whole East coast :)After recieving his mom's msg to ask us go back , than we went to the Carpark and meet his mom. They drived me back home (: Reached home at 6.15am ;)

Woke up by Sweetest♥ 's calls this afternoon at 4.35pm . Omg ? I 'm damn piggy , sleep for so many hours. Sweetest♥ ask me whether wanna go Lion Troupe competition with him anot , And of course i wanna go (: This 's the first time i prepared so fast and less than an hour to meet up with Sweetest♥. The venue was at Ang Mo Kio CC. So many groups and we couldnt see where Sweetest♥ 's group. And finally we saw it - LING YING . He went to tok with his friends and i called Yun hao Mei to chat. Than when we was watching, i stand quite a distance away from Sweetest♥ as i was too short to see the lion dance-.- Than Sweetest♥ ask me to stand nearer to him as he scared later got ppl knock onto me or got guy take number from me . Laughs ! He was jealous ...LOL. After we went to eat our dinner - Chicken Teriyaki (Japanese cuisune) & Ribena for our drinks :D Went home after dinner , they bring me back home - as usual (: Sweetest♥ gave me a kiss when i went home (:

Its not the matter we can meet up again anot b4 your recovery,
Its the matter of whether we love each other anot.
Since your answer is yes ,
You do love me,
Than there shouldnt be any problem.
You care & love me constantly ,
You pampered me & i can feel everything throughout .
Just remember we belong to each other
We love each other
And Thats enough ..
Simple & Sweetest Love ..

Dearest♥

2009-07-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

Photos we took on saturday (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:

2009-07-25T21:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PANDA (:

Just reached home from Chervon. Meet Dearest , tiger & Panda at 6pm around JurongPoint there cabbie to Chevron (: When there to celebrate Panda's birthday & mine :D As Dearest couldn't help me celebrate on 26th June this year , so she help me celebrate today . Thanks Dearest for the cake ♥ We sing , we eat , we drink & we dance . It's fun today , I did enjoy myself. Took alot of photos too , shall upload them when i got it ;) But i'm damn worried the stuff will call me back as we messed up the whole place -.- Cakes and cream dropped all over the place.How ? Fine $50 . Hopefully wont' right ? Call Sweetest♥ just now, he's still at his relative's place T.T So i 'll go home and wait for his call than ^~^ I'm waiting ~~~~

i♥cotton on, pretty&cheap

2009-07-25T13:03:00.001+08:00

       Grab this photo at joanne blog, we bought it cheap at $15 only(:
        And i took the wrong size ): i should take size 5 but the smallest is 6.
        So joanne took size 8 &i took size 6.
        At first it's just nice, but it turns looser now. why uhs ?
                                       I ♥ this pants so much (:

Precisely, we belong to each other♥

2009-07-25T12:52:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 9.30am , woken up by Dearest calls (: Ytd fall asleep after hanging Sweetest♥ calls after chatting for hours ; So sweet of him :D Both of us is looking forward for Today ! So tat we can meet up (: Chat with Dearest in the msn jus, planning later how to celebrate pandas' birthday. We decide to go Chevron (: Than after tat shall meet my Sweetest♥ :D Shall post again when i come back home after all the activities . Leaving my house soon around 4 or 5 plus , waiting for Dearest calls ;)
And i 'm going on my diet plan on Monday (: Shall see me in my Slim figures back soon yeahs? Hurray ! ~~

2009-07-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

23th July 2oo9 , Joanne& me (:

How i wish everyday is a Saturday

2009-07-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

Wednesday :
Went out with celesta - my Best friend in primary school :D 4years already & we're still contacting til now . We went out to ~~Jurongpoint~~ as i need to deposit money in my POSB . We bought the same ring , braclet and some new Bra-strap :) Spent so much ;( I need a JOB urgently ! I'm damn broke , and i hate it ! Damn . We walked around , and she wanted to get maggie noodles-.- Laughs, went to the fairprice and get it. At last i'm the one whos' buying -.- cos' she couldnt find her wants. I bought a 2Llitre low-fat milk and maggie noodles-.- Finally cabbie home (:

Today :
Went out with Joanne today :D Our first destination - CCK. Bought my new pants (: I like it so much ! Cont shopping and walked around there. And we ate Sushi for out lunch - Yummy ^~^ Kintof boring there, so we took train to sembawang , actually going Yishun . But din . Went there and saw some undergarment , damn cute & pretty .So i bought it (: JoJo says he miss me ! :D Took train home alone as Joanne 's hubby lombang her home . JoJo chat with me on the phone til i reached Jurong , so sweet of yous (:

I 'm really looking forward for every saturday.. Only now and then , i can see you on this day - due to your injuries..You have my promised , i'm waiting for you to recover fully from your accident. I know you 're afraid i at outside anyhow as u cared about me. Laughs, How i wish everyday is a Saturday.. so that we could go out together , as well as your family (:

nice ? I'm getting this two bags soon (:

2009-07-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

Finally could post le (: Blogger change more high-tech le siols , make me two borin days cant change my font & upload photos -.- I'm damn upset & confused right now okay ?! I need money ~ I really need it , those fk-up blogshop ): It's all my fault , i could only blame myself but nobody . I'm too greedy. But those clothing is really damn nice luhs! I cant resist to make it belong to me ~~ I dont think i cant get it anywhere else in singapore with this price .

Sweet yeahs?

2009-07-21T12:34:00.003+08:00

My posting is having some problems. So not in a mood to post. Ytd mistooked and angry with me about something funny. I told him i'm playing mahjong with ah bee ( bi qing jie - my biao ge 's girlfriend) . And he tot he's a guy. He was so so damn angry and ask me don't tok to him.Than i was not in the good mood too of course. He keep dun wanna tell me what he's angry about -.- And everything settled at night, when i tell him clearly that the ah bee is bi qing. Than he orhhhhs.. -.- they 6 years nv see each other le, hahas. Bi qing jie saw my lappy wallpaper than was like so so surprised , and told me they knew each other. But not sure Joker still rmbr her anot le.
Didnt go school today , not feeling so well. Just woke up for Joker call , 3 msges from him ..

1st: Later wake up den text me(6.46am)
2nd: Why haven wake up dear ? Go school le lei (7.12am)
3rd: MeiMei wake up le la.Aiyo no go school den somemore slp til so late(10.13am)

When i read his msges , grinning and gentle smile on my phone ; so sweet of him (: Chatting with him in the msn now (: He's worried for me. He forced me to drink 2cup of water jus now. Feel so bloated.There's still lots of romantics things happened btw both of us. Not going to tell u guys for the time being :D

Melody,
It's happy that u forgot him already.And thanks for your wishes for me and Joker (: Please takecare of yourself , go see a doctor pls. Everyone starts to fall sick le, i'm going too.My whole body feel very uncomfortable . Hate the feeling ! Although his presence is not by my side, but he care for me by his words&anger luhs (: Laughs ^~^

why ? wat should i do ? wat happened?

2009-07-20T17:56:00.001+08:00

Ytd stayed at home the whole day . Cause must guai guai . Today went to school , chat with Joker on the phone at recess time. Than Mr tan came in , i quickly hang up the phone .Phew~~ came back home after school. Bi qing jie came to my corrider jio Mahjong. Than i go next door play . Bring my laptop along. Wanted to use internet there , but couldnt connect . Actually wanna chat with Joker at msn. But keep disconnect . Just came back here , first thing is tok to Joker. But he ask me not to talk to him. I really dont' know why . I asked him what did i do that i make him upset , But he din wanna reply me ); I really don't know wat happened ? What should i do ? Haishh , really feel lost .